In the past, this blog has been a reflection of my life at any given time. Whether it was money, health and, once upon a time, law school. If I have something weighing on me, I write. If I have problems, I write. In the past several months, I haven’t been writing as much. I can blame things on my hectic schedule, but that’s not it. I think it is because I’m happy. Probably the happiest I’ve ever been.
It’s not that I feel bad about being happy, because I don’t. It’s because I’m not used to writing when I’m happy. I want to write more again and I think there will be another shift in my content in the near future.
So, what’s making me happy? Here’s the short list and I want to talk so much more about all of them.
For many years, I was incredibly unhappy as a lawyer. It wasn’t the right career for me. Not the way I was doing it. I left the practice of law in March to focus on FitFluential. I cannot stress how much I love my work, our community and the people I work with. (Most people are not lucky enough to work every day with their best friends. I am.)
In addition, I’ve come to terms with what I liked and didn’t like about the law. There will be more to come about this, but I’m starting my own firm. Not because I need to, but because I want to. I want to use the skills that I’ve developed to help people. The new site will launch soon and we’ll talk more then. But I know it is the right thing.
For a long time, I felt like a bad friend because I am not always physically there for people. I am calling myself on my own BS. I make time when people need me, regardless of how busy a particular day might be. I think my friends know that I am always here for them. They just might get me over email and not in person. But I am coming to accept that that doesn’t make me a bad friend.
When you are happy, it helps all of your relationships. My marriage could not be better right now. It wasn’t bad before, but I think that there is a certain levity to me that wasn’t there before. Our relationship has only gotten stronger. [I love you, Baby.]
Late last year, I realized how much of my thinking was clouded because of my constant body snarking. That’s over. Now, I am grateful every day for how strong I’ve become. In working out at Life Time for such a short period of time, I’ve seen massive changes in my body. I’ve lost six inches and I’m at my lowest weight in years. But the weight loss is only a part of the puzzle. I’m getting stronger. Seeing the number change on the scale is great, but nothing was more exciting than the day that I discovered I was getting definition in the triceps. (And then I made my husband feel my new muscle.)
A lot of really hard stuff has happened in the past several months. My father had a stroke and nothing was scarier than the thought that we could lose him. My grandfather had a massive leg infection and he is now in assisted living. My grandmother passed. (My grandfather is my only grandparent left.)
But, it’s about how you handle the hard times. I’ve used this time to cherish and celebrate my family. And I’m so grateful for every second I have with them.
I’ve spoken with a couple of friends recently about the changes in my life. Last year at this time, I was in a bad place. I was deeply unhappy. Then I went to BlogHer and I saw Gretchen Rubin speak. Then I read The Happiness Project. Something about that book clicked and I made the conscious decision to be more happy. My life became my own happiness project. In that year, everything has changed. My attitidue, my relationships, my job. To call it a life changer is an understatement.
I’m happy. At times, I look back and consider how unhappy I was for such a long time. I wasn’t satisfied and I let my frustrations take over. Shifting my attitude and letting myself feel joy has changed so much.
This photo says it all. It was a candid photo that the photographer, Lolli, snapped while we were doing headshots. This is how I feel. Laughing and full of happy. And that necklace. It’s by Amy Cornwell. (I LOVE Amy’s jewelry.) I got it at a conference. It says Just Be You and there is a little star. It’s absolutely perfect. Not to mention that pearls are my birthstone. Show your joy, friends.