I'm getting caught in my own yuppie whining trap again. The constant worrying about money. The job stress and the long hours. Enough is enough.
1. I am damn lucky to have a job in this economy. Especially the one that I have. No whining about job stress allowed. No matter how tired I am after 12 hours in the office.
2. Money stress is not allowed either because I am an adult and I have a job. I just have to figure out how to make it work. Although some days, I think I need to apply to be the stock girl at CVS at night. Except that I never would know when I can work because I might have to work at the other job late.
3. Health stress. I am doing better with this. I have successfully stomached my valtrex for a week. This is a record for me. So hopefully this means I can start making progress on the Epstein Barr. We'll see.
4. General mental well being. I had a full fledged panic attack at work this afternoon. I had an intense pain in my upper back, near my neck. Somehow, I convinced myself that I was having a heart attack. So, of course, other heart attack like symptoms started. I know it was panic. But, you know, it was damn inconvenient. It is also a little hard to disguise when you are sitting in a chair in a partner's office trying to take notes on an assignment. I calmed myself down, but this is absurd. No more of that.
I need to get through tomorrow (which is going to be a rough day at the office, but I'll get it all done). Then I need to relax over the weekend. I need to get some sort of quality rest because I swear I am losing it. I need to read, clean and laugh with brian and the wee petri dishes. I need to go get some spring clothes. I need to prioritize myself onto my important things to take care of.
So incredibly exhausted. I really feel like I could start crying any second. It's just been one of those days…
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